Right now, I am feeling a bit stuck. And I am unsure why exactly.
Maybe I do,
I have the strongest desire to travel this world, Spread the Gospel, live out of a backpack, help people, love people, be changed every step that I walk.
But.
I am stuck.
Or so I feel.
Working fifty hours a week at two different jobs just so I can pay my monthly bills and to provide for my doggy dog ( who is the cutest ever, by the way :p ).
I don’t feel like I am moving anywhere, sideways, forward, anything.
Just at a stand still.
I probably should spend time in His Word & listen to Him. Give all my attention to Him.
My worry is overpowering me when it shouldn’t be. God has everything under control. So why am I asking him why not yet!?
I’m asking about my purpose, His plan, for guidance, and obedience to Him.
I know I have a purpose- He is my forever purpose.
My heart cries out for The Lord right now.
What am I doing? What am I supposed to be doing right now?
My heart is heavy with burdens; I need Your rest.
Life isn’t about the next Facebook post, or next blog post I do. Or the next tattoo I get. Or the next meal I can eat. Or the next clothing item I can buy at Goodwill.
It is about Jesus and spreading His Holy Love.
I have been working twenty days in a row- will be twenty-seven all together before my next day off- this could have something to do with my weariness, tiredness, and worrisome attitude. But who knows…
Every breathe I take is from You, giving me life, giving me yet another chance to spread Your unfailing Love.
You are Love, God.
My past is not who I am and God’s redemption is not within my understanding. He has done so much and has gotten me through so much- my heart is constantly changing, breaking, growing because of Him.
Yet I am doubting His plans.
That. Or.
My desires are not matching up with my life right now, I guess you could say…
Yes, I love life, don’t get me wrong. I love going to work and taking care of the cute elderly and playing babies and tickles with an amazing young lady who is autistic. My jobs are amazing. I just don’t even know how to describe it… I don’t if I am just being a wuss and not believing God can turn my dreams (His plans) into a reality I can believe or I am not trusting Him that He has a plan (which is a complete lie-cause I know full well He has the world in His Mighty Hands and has plans we can’t even fathom). Man oh man. I am just utterly confuzzled right now.
I shall go spend some time in His Word…
Being still and knowing that He is God.
❤
What are ya’ll working on with our amazing Father?
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